Time has passed. Life has shifted. I’m back to discovering the more of God, but from a whole new perspective . . .
The last few weeks have been delineated by hard, unwanted, sorrowful change for our family through the death of our Miss Lucy Mae.
The thing is . . . we have confidence Miss Lucy Mae stepped into the dazzling dimension called heaven . . . even so, it’s a process to learn how to live without her.
There are moments which seem more difficult than other times as the force of grief unexpectedly pushes its way through the big and small details of living, leaving us breathless, gasping for air, desperately wanting life the way it was supposed to be.
While it’s difficult to comprehend: this is life. And. We’ve only begun the process of learning how to live this life all over again, while leaning on God. I think I understand, more than ever, what Proverbs 3 means when we are told not to lean on our own understanding:
Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding (Proverbs 3:5, NIV).
No matter what the explanation, there’s not any reason good enough to explain Miss Lucy Mae’s death. There are some people who’ve tried to give us reasons. We know they’re trying to be helpful. But. If, you’ve ever experienced loss, you know that hearing someone’s reasoning for your personal loss does not help.
It helps when those around us refuse to put the whole situation in a neat and tidy box of answers, joining us with asking the “whys” of this situation, trusting God will always accept our questions with understanding, love, grace, and mercy.
I’m of the opinion that asking questions, including the “whys” of life, is an essential part of trusting God. Otherwise, we’re not surrendering it all or trusting God to accept where we’re at in our life. Yes. There are times the list of “whys” will be long and challenging. BUT. I’ve learned throughout the years of my life, God is always with us, walking alongside of us in the deepest valleys, making a way through the “whys” with unrelenting love and understanding. Trusting God in the worst of times, when life doesn’t make sense, when nothing has gone the way it was supposed to go, and when there seems to be more questions than answers enables us to move forward with hope for the future.
Learning to Kickstart each day, trusting God with the “whys” of life,
(Written by Kerrie Carlisle Palmer © 2012 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED)